Alive | Springfield Missouri Boudoir
For the first time in months, I'm sitting at my computer at my desk in my house, ready to work and dream. It has been a super hard 2024.
I'm sorry if you felt like I disappeared...
I did.
Losing a dad will do that to you.
You can feel like it's all a dream. You can feel like there is something missing but the world keeps going on.
I can't describe it completely. It's honestly something I don't think you will get until you have that person in your life disappear, which I don't wish on anyone.
But I'm alive.
I am still a photographer.
I still love boudoir with all of my heart.
And I still love all of you that read these words.
I feel almost as if I needed to hide in the darkness for awhile.
Be just a girl on a couch being sucked into weird fun TV shows! (Sandman, Winx, Cursed)
No one said we had to jump back into everything quickly.
My Facebook group has been patient.
You have been patient.
And I feel alive.
When I feel alive, I create.
I create something.
It might be messy or weird or whatever, but it hits me right where I need it.
I become alive.
This session gave me life.
It made me realize I'm not done with creating.
And with this life I've been granted, I want to create.
So to feel alive, I will paint, draw, design, journal or photograph to get my feelings where they need to be.
And be patient with yourself.
